Johnny Depp VS Amber Heard

I have no idea who is in the right, but when I read the reports of Depp’s testimony, it reminds me of my marriage….but then, war atrocities also remind me of my marriage…..

I was really torn about whether or not I would blog about this topic or not. I have to admit, having been in an abusive relationship, I identify with Johnny Depp. But my significant other, who has been in an abusive relationship, points out that women do suffer terrible violence from men who often put on a facade. So I’m going to challenge myself to attempt to write about this objectively. Y’all please let me know in the comments if you think I’ve accomplished what I set out to do. Examining this case, I will discuss three things:

  • 1) Abuse victims tend to attract abusive partners. The abuser needs someone who is used to execrable treatment, normal people would never put up with their shtuff!
  • 2) Narcissists and those with Borderline Personality Disorder often seduce their victims with a strategy called by survivors a “love bomb.”
  • 3) This case has riveted us so much because we are all aware of a deep divide between the sexes that has gone on all of my lifetime, and it is a microcosm of what many of us go through.
One thing I’ve leaned is there are differing levels of crazy. I know about some of my issues because of therapy, and because of years of deep introspection and journaling. But the Narcissist and the BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder…..not Boston Police Department) often actually don’t see their behavior as the problem.

On my first point…..abusers love to prey upon the abused. Possibly some of this is due to the weakness of psyche you experience after abuse, but I think the main reason is they know on some level they are going to treat this person badly, and someone with healthy self esteem just won’t put up with it. So when we are analyzing the case of Johnny Depp and Amber Heard….which of them has suffered abuse in the past?

Johnny Depp has admitted to suffering from abuse as a child, saying that his mother was verbally abusive, and that his father would just walk away when this happened. Amber Heard says her father was an alcoholic and violent. So both came from abusive families, which sounds about right. Either one of them could be the abuser.

Jack Sparrow’s best line in my humble opinion. A person can marry a Narcissist BPB. But you can never get them to care about anyone or anything but themselves.

I remember when I first started dating my ex wife, she was the sweetest, most loving and kind person I had ever known up to that time. She basically made me the center of her world, treating me like a king and a hero. Once the ring was on the finger, however, all bets were off. I’ve recently joined a Facebook group, Male Victims of Female Narcissists, and it is crazy how many go through similar experiences. But in the interests of fairness, let’s examine the testimony as it stands.

“Yes….I’ve done embarrassing things….like my movie Conan……so of course you can share you most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done…..wait….you did what? Where? Get the hell off my movie!

I bring this up because Johnny Depp’s testimony about how wonderful things were when they were first dating all sounds familiar. I quote from an article about his first day of testimony:

“In Tuesday’s session, he testified…about the early years of his relationship with Heard, saying she seemed “too good to be true” at first.”

“She was attentive,” Depp said of the woman he married in 2015. “She was loving. She was smart. She was kind. She was funny. She was understanding … We had many things in common, certain blues music … literature.”

He said there were little things, though, that gave him indications of a rocky relationship ahead. She became upset, he said, when he broke an established routine in which she took off his boots for him when he came home. And he said she was angry when he wouldn’t go to bed when she was ready.

“I didn’t understand why, as a 50-some-year-old man, I couldn’t go to sleep when I wanted to.” he said.

Depp, 58, said he was cognizant of the age difference between him and Heard, 35.

“I acknowledge the fact I was the old, craggy fogey and she was this beautiful, creature,” he said.

But Depp said that within a year and a half, it was as if Heard had become another person.

So far, Depp’s friends, family and employees have testified that Heard was the aggressor in the relationship, physically attacking him on multiple occasions. Heard’s former personal assistant testified that Heard spit in her face in a fit of rage.

Amber Heard with Johnny Depp on the set of Rum and Gin Dummies. Boy, say what you like but the makeup job on ol’ Johnny is top notch….what….? That’s not Johnny Depp? That’s Amber Heard’s first wife? Never mind.

So we have Johnny Depp’s testimony about being “love bombed,” but I can’t be fair here, as I would like. Likely it is out there, but I don’t find anything from Amber Heard describing the beginning of their relationship, and she is going to testify next week. If anyone has any information, please let me know in the comments. And likely we will all know more in a few more days. But at this time, all this tired blogger knows is, JD claims to have been “love bombed” AH is silent on that, but claims to have been abused by an alcoholic, drug using husband. And in all fairness, I wish to point out that there is not enough here to make a true diagnosis (even if I were qualified to do that, which I am not).

Here Amber Heard presents to the court definitive proof that Johhny Depp did in fact start lopping off his own fingers at age fifty,,,,,,

Last of all….it has been established by in depth psychological analysis that the person who cares the least in a relationship is the one with the most power. That is often the reason why narcissists wield so much of the power in a relationship (and this is true of both men and women). It is called The Principle of Least Interest, and you can read about it here:,the%20balance%20of%20power%20tilts.

Huh….American Gothic is way different than I remember it being….

It’s honestly one reason why abused, battered women and men often stay in the relationship for years or decades after everyone has told them to get out. They love the other person. And we’ve all been told that “love conquers all.” We have begun to wake up to how women can be oppressed with this myth, but we rarely discuss (or care) how it can on occasion be the man that is mistreated and he stays because he loves her so much….and surely….if I just live her better….if I hadn’t made her mad….I shouldn’t have said that. In the end, we have to realize it is the abuser who is at fault. Does that mean we should taunt the abuser….no. Is there room for sympathy for an abuser….well…..I think in some cases, though honestly, as a survivor of abuse myself, it is not easy to feel any sympathy for those who bully their partners (we’ll leave the discussion about those who abuse children for another post).

Amber Heard is pictured here reacting to the 2013 movie The Lone Ranger. She was quoted as saying “It was inevitable, I always knew I would one day have to gouge my own eyes out, this was it.” The court psychiatrist stated that while yes Amber was a flaming psycho, Depp’s performance in this turkey merited what he got.

On my last point, while I have my own take on it and frankly my own predisposed beliefs, the truth of the matter is, I don’t know who did what to whom. We have a lot of testimony, photos, and videos, that should frankly embarrass both of them. But this case has taken center stage a lot more deeply than most celebrity debacles do. I look at a list of last years celebrity divorces….and I frankly don’t remember any of them. I know maybe half of the names, and don’t even care to research any of them. Yet this case has caught my attention to the point I’ve written a post twice the size of what I intend to write, and the nation has practically forgotten covid. Why is this?

There are five love languages, and these two exhibit two strikingly different love languages. JD’s love language is hats that make him look like the Joker, and AH is defecating on the bed. She was just marking her territory.

The divide between the sexes in my lifetime has been, in my humble opinion, a tragic crime. I don’t know who (other than maybe Satan) to lay the blame on, but I honestly think there are not many more destructive elements in our culture than this division in our houses. I’ve read the stories of pioneers, heard my grandpa tell me the stories of his dad, who was a pioneer in Oklahoma. If the man and the woman did not band together and face the difficult world around them as a team, they and their children were all dead.

Are we really so arrogant now, as to think we can take on this world, which is at least as cruel as it was a hundred twenty years ago in my great grandfather’s day, without the love and aid and comfort of the Other? Are we really all so selfish that we think we can just beat (physically or mentally) our partners into submission and make abject slaves of them? Too many men (and yes….too many women) think it is their right to dominate and not care about anyone else.

No, I don’t really know who is right or wrong here (I suspect neither has done right by the other). I don’t intend in this post to really pick a side, especially since Heard has not given her testimony yet. I’m going to leave two links that I think make good cases for both sides so readers can make up their own minds:

I haven’t found a balanced video yet, and yes, this one is basically pro Johnny, as a lot of them are. I post it because I love the statement of Depp’s friend: “I’m tired. What I want is for her to heal and Johnny to heal.” Whoever did what to whom, both seem to me like broken people. I hope they do in fact both heal.


  1. Naila says:

    In general relationship is hard work. Both sides have to work to improve and keep healthy relationships start with trust is most important aspect, communication to personal habits. If trust is broken it’s better not to stay in the relationship. No one should stay in a toxic relationship. In the marriage of JD and AH is hard to say who’s the abuse or victim. Both have done horrible things to each other. They both sick mentally to be willing to treat each other like animals. I don’t believe there was love in that relationship. I can’t call it marriage. Marriage is holy and blessed by our lord. Let’s discuss trust neither one trust each other. I believe trust can build or destroy a relationship. All I have seen, heard and reading about their relationship point to miss trust. No one can tell about their communication style. Judging their relationship from the bad days is wrong and not fair to either person. I’m not defending either one. I have no respect to either one. My previous experience has nothing to do with my opinion on this matter. I have been thinking about trust a lot lately. They reminded me how important trust is relationship, I should thank them for reminding me of that. Even with our relationship with our dogs, they must trust us to love us and be loyal. Who knows in that situation who Brooke that bond. Either one could of done it. Either by flirting in person or even over text. Or even comparing former relationship to current could of done the damage. Drugs could of done that too. It’s healthy to talk about former relationship but not healthy to compare.
    May our lord and savior bless us and keep our eyes on the empty cross until we meet him again in this godless world

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    1. Curtiswselby says:

      Thank you for the thoughtful comment. Yes, trust is key. That’s why I love dogs. I trust Noalla implicitly. She’s so sweet. Doggy doggy doggy

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      1. ND says:

        Thank you for replying. please explore other websites besides WIKI. I personally don’t trust it. I have found active to be better website with RP certified, peer review and medical journals to back up their theories. I have read this article on the website ” reasons to fall out of love with toxic relationships”. its been an eye opening for me. especially with my lack of experience in that department. Trust in the source and important to the readers. although, you have been through horrible and devastating relationship. I hope you can move passed it and learn from it. comparing your new girlfriend to your EX all the time is ….. I hope you can fill in the blank. but I will tell you she’s taking note and notice how often its done. definitely, causing her pain, agony and mistrust.

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  2. NorthernOkie says:

    Well done!
    Good info (honestly, I haven’t been following this at all) that served fair and informative.

    Once again the reflections you have for us all (2nd paragraph from the end) are INSIGHTFUL and ring so very true.

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