Not gonna lie to you’ll bros and brunettes. I took a pretty good hit this Friday. My closest friends will know what this is all about. Nobody died, so that is a blessing. But I lost someone very dear to me in another way. I’m not here to air dirty laundry, or to say that anyone was at fault. Let’s just say your Tired Midnight Blogger is not the luckiest when it comes to matters of the heart.
I wrote my series about the battle between the sexes in part to wrap my head around some things that were happening personally. Trying to figure out how much is my fault, how much hers, and how much society’s. Hoping that things could work out. Wishing I knew how to make things work. Wishing I was the kind of man that could move the heart and inspire her loyalty.
Once again, I have failed. I likely shouldn’t, but I will paraphrase some of the things she said. “You only care about yourself.” “You are a liar and a cheater.” “Your attention-seeking is sickening.” “”Fix your personal problems. Take a stand against your laziness, blaming, and lies.” “Look at your friend ‘John Smith.”
I actually tried, but once again it was not enough. I kept trying to tell myself that either I was overreacting, or that maybe I was lazy and should just work harder. I tried to understand, I tried to forgive.
I’m all forgived out. Look, maybe she was right more than half the time. But she was far from correct about me a fair percentage of the time. I’ll be honest, I don’t know how right I was about her in the worst moments (frankly, I was likely as right as I was in the best moments). But at some point, you just have to realize that you can’t make this person happy, and they either can’t or have no interest, in helping you toward happiness. Is it selfishness to say it is over?
I don’t know if I hope or fear some ex-girlfriend reads this. I’ve done some profoundly crappy things to girlfriends that did not even remotely have it coming. Not the really terrible stuff like beatings, and intentional gaslighting. I can promise you, her, myself, and God (or Cthulhu) that from the day I met my ex-girlfriend (and yeah, it hurts like hell to type the two letters “ex”), I neither wanted another nor did I touch any woman that way or talk to one in an intentionally flirtatious or seductive way. Likely I might have looked at one for two seconds, but that would be all it took before the thought “no, I love HER. I chose HER. I could never do that to HER if a thousand years turned my soul to cold stone.” And I didn’t.
But in the end, whoever is “right” or “wrong,” I stand accused, and evidently convicted as well, even though I didn’t do it.
Well, it is over now. Time to get the detritus of my life out of HERs. Maybe pet the dog for the last time (Oh my god…who can I tell the dog what happened). And ‘watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools.”
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Tired Midnight Blogger (What Blogs at Midnight) 
Ah, Cyrano looking up at the moon as he contemplates his end. Leave it to a Frenchman to think of cheese in his final moments!
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You stinky Americans should mind your own business! Now let me get back to practicing my surrender drills and watching Jerry Lewis
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I in no way mean this as a trite answer but merely to say that sometimes poetry —even if in song lyrics— speaks truth: “it takes two to make a thing go right.”
Relationships are so difficult. They are basically impossible if one side won’t blend and merge with their partner.
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They are difficult. I always felt they shouldn’t be, but they are. I thought about just continuing with my Civil War post, but this one just had to get out before I moved on to anything else
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some relationships very difficult. especially when someone cheats. lies and alcoholic.
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for noala i told you before you can text me when you choose or want to see her.
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I told that may times.
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Why did you delete my comments . Isn’t because of…if I’m horrible like you mentioned then let them read my texts to you
I’m reposting it
I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy.
I have not been happy with you since you took me on date and asked me to pay for my dinner. You paid for the movie ticket
Another text, I have not been happy with you since you took me on date and asked me to pay for my dinner. You paid for the movie ticket
Another text, Yes, she did with pink spaghetti strap. Another, Shame on you for denying your behavior
You deleted the 2 pictures that night
Another, Not my boobs
The woman on picture you deleted
Stop denying what I saw
Her boobs were the picture
Why did you have pictures of other women on your phone? Why would you that? You choose to hurt me and make me angry. Even asking you to do anything is half way done. I gave you my life and my heart and you choose to step on . I loved you I didn’t have online conversation with other guys. You choose them over what we had. I regret it
I never had an experience with boyfriend before
I relied on the internet cuz my friends don’t want me in pain and my family didn’t want my life to be the fixed conversation
I choose anger from my pain
Let’s be civil for you to get your stuff
My back hurts so bad
I slept with heating pad and found it stuck to my skin and 1 degree burns
I’m telling you this asking you for your patience with me not to feel sorry
Work on yourself jumping from relationship to another
Having anger issues, lies, excuse after another , alcoholic, sex addict, and lazy
Even Roy didn’t make it out with your excuses
He doesn’t help
Go away and get help
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Be honest with yourself and others. If you’re honest you leave my comments. Why would you delete them? Ask yourself that before answering to anyone else. We broke up cuz of your behavior, cheating and lies. Now you post this as the victim of my anger and issues. Let my anger shows up to the followers.
Stopped texting my neighbor
He is at my house
Another text, I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy.
Another, I have not been happy with you since you took me on date and asked me to pay for my dinner. You paid for the movie ticket
Another, Yes, she did with pink spaghetti strap
Shame on you for denying your behavior
You deleted the 2 pictures that night
You can compare copy and paste to the texts from me
Another, Not my boobs
The woman on picture you deleted
Stop denying what I saw
Her boobs were the picture
All I saw is her boobs
This is one of your texts, We both did this. I was not looking outside the relationship. If those pictures were of a naked woman, I’d say you had a point. If they were real pictures of an actual woman I was talking to, I’d say you had a point. Yes, I likely should have handled you finding them better, but I was (totally correctly may I add) terrified you would overreact. I told you what they were. You chose to believe it was something completely different from what it really was.
Another text, All I said about Roy is you blaming him for not helping you clean
Another, You definitely don’t know how I feel cuz you did it to me 4 times. If you know how I feel you would not of done it. I believe I was hurt the first time In Peace and you chose to do over and over. If I was not enough for you why would you stayed with me. If you have to look outside the relationship you didn’t have what you need
Happiness is free cost nothing
It’s your choices what broke us a part
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Why do you keep deleting my reply to your post. If you are honest, you keep my reply up and not deleting them.
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I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy.
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I have not been happy with you since you took me on date and asked me to pay for my dinner. You paid for the movie ticket
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Shame on you for denying your behavior
You deleted the 2 pictures that night
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November 8, 2022 at 5:16 pm
I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy.
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I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy
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November 8, 2022 at 5:16 pm
I’m done discussing anything with you
It’s done and over
All you care about is food, sleeping and alcohol and above all is you looking as the victim. People precipitations is more important to you than the truth. Stop with your lies and manipulation. Your lies and attention seeking is sickening
Blaming your past for your behavior is discussing
Blaming your parents for being broken is repulsive. Blaming everything on your ex is awful
Blaming your son for not helping you clean is atrocious. Work on yourself
Fix your personal problems
Take stand for your laziness, blames and lies. Look at your friend Jeremy place it’s clean and yours is filthy.
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You want to keep up with your smear posts , that’s fine and it’s up to you. You need to allow me respond and keep my response up, not deleting it. You have deleted almost every reply to your last 2 posts. There’s always 2 sides to each story and sometimes more than that. Look at your friend J his relationship is over without smear. Let’s be civil and move on. You will not admit your cheating 4 times . I found pictures and you talking to other women while we are dating. We started seeing each other 2/24/2021 on June 5,2021 you were on dating apps . I don’t want to keep living every Hurd moment. Please stop.
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